Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Armed With Love: Protection

1 Corinthians 13:7, "[Love] always protects"

I am sitting here today, in my pajamas, thinking about everything I've been through over the last year. God sure has taken me for a wild ride. Today I am not thinking about how I have loved, but how others have loved me. This year I have battled through a struggle with mental illness. Five years ago I lost nearly 100 pounds. I felt healthier and looked better than I ever had before. One of the side effects of the weight loss was major hormone changes which effected my mental health. My emotions began to be unstable. Day to day I was not sure of how I was going to feel. For a long time, it was only my family who knew what I was going through. They just kept putting up with me, walking on egg shells. When my emotional out bursts became public, they continued to stand by me and cover me with their love. Everything came to a peak when I suffered an emotional breakdown. My sadness and anxiety immobilized me. My husband rushed home from work. My mother, out of frustration, screamed at me over the phone that I needed to get help. My family had become exhausted by my unpredictability. My emotions had taken the driver's seat of my life and were driving me into a canyon, "Thelma and Louise" style. Fortunately, my husband was able to make the phone calls I couldn't. I was able to get the medical and mental help I needed. I feel as though I have disarmed the enemy. My emotions can not longer be used as a weapon against me.

My family truly lived 1 Corinthians 13:7 which says, "[Love] always protects." The King James translation says, "[Love] bears all things." The word "bears" is the Greek word "stego" which is defined by Thayer's Lexicon as "to cover with silence; to keep secret; to hide or conceal the errors or faults of others." True love is like a blanket which covers the faults of those we love. It reminds me of being a little child and having a blanket spread out over me at night. Comfort and security covered over me as I lay in my soft bed. My mother would then pray a good night blessing over me. When we love with "stego" we provide the people we love with the comfort and security of knowing that whatever faults they have, whatever errors they might make, our love has got them covered. That security supported me through a very difficult time. It taught me who I can depend on. I know who's got my back.

I want to return the love my family has given me. I want to give them the security to know that when they make mistakes, my love will keep them covered. When they go through times that seem out of control, I've got their back. I want to live by the command of 1 Peter 4:8, "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."

Thank you, family, for covering me with such great love.